It’s funny how we can misread people. I thought that you were SUCH A DICK. That being said, you are clearly a wreck. You’re clearly dissatisfied with your own accomplishments and scared of taking any meaningful chances. You’ve clearly lost so much faith in yourself and your abilities to make yourself and other people happy. But you’re so fucking cute and I wish you’d of fucked me, I really do. I don’t know if I can look at you in your cute god damn eyes with your stupid perfect eyebrows and just be your friend but I REALLY want to. I don’t know if I can come over for a movie and not want to rest my head on your shoulder, to kiss you. I suppose this is why they say not to date people this far out of your age range. There’s emotional baggage that was being created when I had hardly even entered school. It doesn’t make sense to me. It’s like you keep saying, when we talk its like there is no age difference at all yet you’ve been so emotionally scared by your experiences. I’m so new to it all. AND THIS IS SO CHEESY BUT I’M UPSET BECAUSE I LIKE YOU. I don’t know that I’ve really genuinely liked a person in my whole life but I fucking like you. I want to get to know you, to be there for you, to lay in your arms like I did the other night, nothing between us but skin, your stubbly chest hair sticking straight out in your cold bedroom. I feels impossible for me to come to terms with the fact that I can’t make you want that too.
can we just talk about how fucking weird it is that all of a sudden I’m *SHOCK HORROR* dating people? Like actual males? Most of whom are attractive and…I’m seeing them all at once. A guy wants to fly me to London with him. HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?
